Clusterfuck
February 23, 2010 at 7:16 pm
Instead of trying to catch this up on every god damn thing I have done since the last post I will just highlight some of the top events:
I had the second person in my lifetime guess my racial identity today. It was super shocking and I think I made it into a way bigger deal then I needed to, but that is something extremely interesting and significant to me. Apparently post surgery, my ethnic make up has become more and more defined to the point where complete strangers are asking if I am Half Japanese!! WOW! Speaking of my surgery, I still have some uncomfortable feelings in my jaw. Not pain exactly, but it definitely feels unstable which makes me nervous. I can see how much my lower jaw has receded since the actual surgery, which I know is totally normal but it is sort of scary to think that my bones could give way at any moment and deteriorate on me. I sort of wonder if my multitude plagues are all possibly related to something…. ah well I am not going to give up my life to be a test subject so nevermind.
I went to the gym yesterday and this morning and have been really staying on top of my eating right and I think its really paying off. I feel extremely comfortable in my own skin right now. Obviously there is always room for improvement: I would like to consume less caffiene and cook more veggie dishes, but for my present lifestyle, I think I am doing rather well.
Tomorrow night I am volunteering with the I Love New York Club at a womens shelter craft night. We are babysitting the kids while the women get to do something fun and distracting. Knowing my track record with kids, I am apprehensive, but also really excited to participate in something meaningful that isn’t required by me. This is what I want my life to be like: pushing forward towards improvement, making money, learning, having a good time, being active, and being happy.
I have a major new girl crush on Carey Mulligan. I think she is so beautiful and I love her new blonde pixie and her Vionnet dresses and of COURSE, I am a fan of her boyfriend too.
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