White feminism can suck my dick

August 31, 2014 9:53 am


Omfg I cannot stop applauding throughout the entire video.


Travel Plans + Random updates

August 30, 2014 2:48 pm



August 30, 2014 12:15 am


Miya in her office cube. This morning at work I had the strange realization that I was genuinely happy for the first time in probably over a year. It was so startling that I almost started to cry…. tears of joy I guess …. Definitely a highly sensitive reaction to a positive epiphany….


Sassha loves me already. :)


Some of my favorite tumblr posts recently. #bravery. I’m having a severe problem with insomnia tonight…. Just laying in bed feeling sleepy and uncomfortable and unable to turn my brain off. Thinking how things are going to be now. Think of the future…. And not of the past.

Where’d You Go, Bernadette

August 28, 2014 7:49 am


I was telling my therapist all about my obsession with the Killing and how I love the mythology of Seattle and the Pacific Northwest and how its portrayed in entertainment. My therapist mentioned reading this book, Where’d You Go, Bernadette since it takes place in Seattle and has quite a bit of witty commentary on what life in contemporary Seattle is like. The author wrote for television previously including SNL and Arrested Development. The humor is very subtle but especially good for someone like me who loves reflecting on the bizarre nuances I grew up with.

I just finished this part where she discusses a Chihuly chandelier in a pharmacists office:

“Fine,” I said. “Give me the Xanax and that patch thing.”

I removed myself to the brocade couch. It was murderously uncomfortable. I put my leg up and leaned back. That was more like it. It was a fainting couch, I now realized, and wanted to be lain upon. Hovering over me was the Chihuly chandelier. Chihulys are the pigeons of Seattle. They’re everywhere, and even if they dont get in your way you cant help but build up a kind of antipathy toward them.

This one was all glass, of course, white and ruffly and full of dripping tentacles. It glowed from within, a cold blue, but with no discernible light source. The rain outside was pounding. Its rhythmic splatter only made this hovering glass beast more haunting, as if it had arrived with the storm, a rainmaker itself. It sang to me, Chihuly… Chihuly. In the seventies, Dale Chihuly was already a distinguished glassblower when he got into a car accident and lost an eye. But that didnt stop him. A few years later, he had a surfing mishap and messed up his should so badly that he was never able to hold a glass pipe again. That didnt stop him either. Dont believe me? Take a boat out on Lake Union and look in the window of Dale Chihuly’s studio. He’s probably there now, with his eye patch and dead arm, doing the best, trippiest work of his life. I had to close my eyes.

Hahahah. Obviously I had to share that passage with my mother, who thoroughly enjoyed it. Although she pointed out that Dale’s studio is not anywhere near Lake Union but thats hardly beside the point.

Cats & Bra’s & My Job is Cool

August 27, 2014 7:59 am



Training to be a level one cat companion. More reasons why I am a cat. I need a thundershirt to squeeze me till I feel reassured or a paper bag to hide in.


Two skanky bralettes I picked up for next to nothing at urban outfitters last week. Love the way the black one looks peeking out of a shirt (see Jersey Shore pictures for examples).


Got a laptop at work that hooks up to my monitor. I feel pretty fucking fancy now. I’ve never had a computer set up with dual screens but omg it comes in handy!! Other pleasant surprises:


Sat with the studio coordinator and had her run me through how she creates the schedule and shot counts for each week. Noticed that we tentatively have a stylist scheduled named Helen. Let out a cry of delight as I recognized Helen as someone I had worked with previously! When I was interning for Cannon in college she helped out on various projects and she was so nice to me! We got drunk together at the Blonds after party during fashion week. hahahahh. (She’s got the curly hair and belted cardigan in the above backstage photo.)

My inner merchant can’t help but look at the daily sales. At first I was confused… Then I realized it wasn’t in thousands, it was in millions. HAHAHAH.

I use the same FTP program at work that I’ve been using for personally for this site for years. I’m a nerd so that pleases me.

On Friday we are going down to Soho to look at the top floor of our store to see if we could convert it into an in house photo studio. Come on….. that’s so fucking cool!!! I cant believe that this is part of my job!! :)

Triple discount in stores starts tomorrow!! Time to scope out those Rag & Bone jeans and Theory blazers!!!! Going to get Aimee a belated birthday present as well!!

My mom got tickets from her boss to see jack white in concert. She offered them to Aimee and Chris but apparently Chris hates jack white. Lolz. So my mom took my dad. Recently they also saw sir mix a lot perform at the Seattle symphony. I love my parents for being so fucking adorable. My mom keeps it real and my dad is am artistic dork and it’s such a good combination.


August 26, 2014 9:00 pm



August 25, 2014 10:50 pm


I don’t really need to say anything else. She makes me proud to be a woman. She makes me feel alive.

Magic in the Moonlight & Rooftop parties in Brooklyn

August 24, 2014 3:31 pm

Today is my Wifey’s 25th birthday <3 In celebration we went to dinner and a movie last night. I am so out of touch with whats been playing recently its pathetic but she chose the new Woody Allen movie, Magic in the Moonlight and it was SOOOOOOOOO GOOOOOOOOOD. I mean maybe its the fact that Colin Firth is this ridiculously amazing actor and his character was that perfect combination of narcissism and pessimism that I just die for. Or maybe it was the costumes? Or the fact that it was a very quirky love story? Either way I adored it and would highly recommend it.

Afterwards, I went to Carol Ann’s disco party at her new apartment. Anne is moving to New Orleans for grad school which is great because she and Charlie can figure out life in NOLA together. Carol Ann took over Anne’s room and they were hosting a welcome/birthday/goodbye party on their roof. I’m going to be honest I was not in the mood for one of these Brooklyn shin digs where I would have to socialize with some arguably awkward and pretentious people but it was actually REALLY fun.







The rooftop next door had a half pipe built on it which seems beyond dangerous but whatever…. no one was making me skateboard to my death so to each their own. We listened to disco and ashanti and I made myself a suitably strong screwdriver. We chatted around and I caught up with Marissa. She rolled us the best blunt ever (according to my mother, nurses roll the best blunts) and we laughed about astrology and Buffy and the fact that Carol Ann had hooked up with this guy at the party named Doug when they were in highschool and before she was out of the closet. We were grilling her on how it all went down and she said they got to third base. Carol Ann implied Doug was quite the giver and thats when I shouted “DAMN! I knew I should have been talking to Doug all night!!!!!” And then we dissolved into THC induced laugher. The Polaroid camera was obviously my favorite thing in the entire world. Very happy I had fun!

Work, Roses and lessons in Love

August 23, 2014 12:58 pm


It took me forever to find this clip so its kind of shitty quality, but this opening sequence is my favorite part in Devil Wears Prada. And I have to laugh because yes it is a movie and yes it is an exaggeration. But still…… this is kind of my life. Hahahahahahahahahaah. I even saw Adrian Grenier in the hallway at Delias once because he was waiting for one of our freelance stylists to take him shopping. All my co workers were shitting themselves because he is rather tall and good looking in person. Anyways, here is to living the dream! #riseandgrindladies #lookingfabulousintheoffice


Work has been going really well. I actually really like that HR sets up these training classes for us on leadership and diversity. Creating professional expectations is the first step to creating professional employees. The above photo was a group challenge where we were competing to build a card tower in 15 minutes. The important take away is that my team won. bahahahah.


Josh is clearly seeing a new girl. I am actually happy for him :) Makes me feel good about how things turned out (weird but very telling). But I still cannot resist being my sassy self. I know he misses my snarky quips. The only reason I was able to guess that the movie he saw in central park was The Way We Were was because Ruth invited me to come see it with her and a bunch of girls from the office.


Practical lingerie, yeah? I plan on wearing this in bed BY MYSELF surrounded by lit candles, rose petals and netflix.


Remember way back in the day when I wanted to get a Mucha tattoo? Well that impulse faded slightly over the years but now I am starting to wonder if I should try to incorporate some of his rose/floral work into that theoretical piece I want on the back of my right arm? Hmmmmm. Just something to think about. I tend to mull over tattoo ideas for yearssssss before I ever get anything done. I am intrigued by this artist though. He did a lot of Francesca’s tattoos (my tumblr girl crush who got her face beat). He’s got this highly stylized old school tattoo thing going on that I am digging.

Lessons on life and love under the cut……



August 21, 2014 9:07 pm

1: What are you wearing?
2: Ever been in love?
3: Ever had a terrible breakup?
4: How tall are you?
5: How much do you weigh? YES! I actually answer this question above!!!!
6: Any tattoos?
7: Any piercings?
8: OTP?
9: Favorite show?
10: Favorite bands?
11: Something you miss? .
12: Favorite song?
13: How old are you?
14: Zodiac sign?
15: Quality you look for in a partner?
16: Favorite Quote?
17: Favorite actor?
18: Favorite color?
19: Loud music or soft?
20: Where do you go when you’re sad?
21: How long does it take you to shower?
22: How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
23: Ever been in a physical fight?
24: Turn on?
25: Turn off?
26: The reason I joined YouTube?
27: Fears?
28: Last thing that made you cry?
29: Last time you said you loved someone?
30: Meaning behind your YouTube Name?
31: Last book you read?
32: The book you’re currently reading?
33: Last show you watched?
34: Last person you talked to?
35: The relationship between you and the person you last texted?
36: Favorite food?
37: Place you want to visit?
38: Last place you were?
39: Do you have a crush?
40: Last time you kissed someone?
41: Last time you were insulted?
42: Favorite flavor of sweet?
43: What instruments do you play??
44: Favorite piece of jewelry?
45: Last sport you played?
46: Last song you sang?
47: Favorite chat up line?
48: Have you ever used it?
49: Last time you hung out with anyone?
50: Who should answer these questions next?